"I don’t care if it hurts
I want to have control
I want a perfect body
I want a perfect soul"
Radiohead - Creep (via skinnydream-diary)

Good morning legs that I hate so much yet never change. I want to get used to them so badly.
When you start to cut or stop eating, or throwing up, you never see a world in the same way. You begin to notice the arms and wrists of the people, the way they hide their arms and seek to make short movements, all without leaving the show the inside of the arm. You begin to notice if the person eats or not, if she has that worried look guilty and after eating. You shall notice the people who go in the bathroom after eating, always alone … Once you are on that side you shall notice the false and cynical smiles, where the only thing that is “happy” is the mouth, eyes are cold, sad and lifeless. When you get the world is never the same.

(Source: allhopeisgon-e)



"You do care. You care so much it’s eating you away. You hate the fact that you care so much but it’s the only thing you know how to do but you constantly lie to yourself just so you can get through the day."
//12:06// (via ladiscutee)


If you know someone who’s depressed, please resolve never to ask them why. Depression isn’t a straightforward response to a bad situation; depression just is, like the weather.

Try to understand the blackness, lethargy, hopelessness, and loneliness they’re going through. Be there for them when they come through the other side. It’s hard to be a friend to someone who’s depressed, but it is one of the kindest, noblest, and best things you will ever do.

Stephen Fry (via wordsnquotes)



Self harm is not beautiful.

Self harm was me, at three pm, crying my eyes out because I was scared because I wasn’t thinking and I was bleeding on my bed. Self harm is the fact that I have a stash of 2x2 gauze strips to wrap around my arm and put pressure on while I drink water, trying not to feel how dizzy I am. Self harm is being afraid to fall asleep tonight, because this just keeps opening and bleeding into my shirt. Self harm is the fact that my pinky can’t bend without my arm shooting in pain. Self harm is being afraid that I will accidentally kill myself when I’m angry and not thinking.

Self harm is a fear of myself.

Self harm. Is not. Fucking. Beautiful.

I Got Angry Today, me. (via lonely-suicidee)

(Source: slowly-getting-worse)

"Let everything terrible happen to you in a beautiful way"
ten word story (via not-the-skinny-one)

"Some old wounds never truly heal, and bleed again at the slightest word."
George R.R. Martin, A Game of Thrones (via observando)

"I’m exhausted mentally and physically. I’m making myself sick and all I want to do is give up."